Innocence Lost

I sit in fear every time he comes near

Curled in a ball, childish dreams no more

Feelings I can't describe, so confused

And lost what is happening I cry as his

Hand moves up my thigh I wish I could die..

Happiness is gone , I am ashamed,  fairy tales

No more,  now I am hiding on the floor.

This does not feel right I want to scream

But I am so scared what does this mean?

Just a child so confused this can't

Be the love I have heard of. Please stop

I cry without  knowing  the reason why

I am just a child but this feels wrong

How long must it go on…

Safe for now he is gone,  what should

I do,  no one must know of this disgrace

 keeping it hidden from my face.

My childhood taken from me I can't

Get that sweet innocence back

Always fearing the next attack…

You say you love me and this is right

Why are you putting up a fight

I just want to hold you and show you

My love come closer my dear

I want to whisper in your ear..

Can't you see what you have done to me

I lived in fear for so many years

Crying in shame please don't call my name.

Stay away from me, keep your hands off

Please God make him stop.

Now I am grown and you are gone

But I must live and remember everyday

How you stole my innocence away….