Pain & Judgement

The pain consumes me with every breath I take

The walls surround me, as I pull the shades,

 shutting out this world of judgement and hate.

People  judge what they do not understand

Talking,  gossiping, making their plans.

Just look at the bright side they say

at least you are alive another day.

Filled with so much advice to give,

you only have one life to live.

Get a job , go exercise, quit being lazy and

Depressed, put on a smile just go get dressed.

There are others worse off then you I hear

No reason for your fears, just stop those selfish tears.

What do they know they can't feel my pain

What have I got to gain. It hurts so much

When they think I am lying, inside it feels

Like I am dying.

Medications, Specialists, pain management,

I have tried. Chiropractors, surgeries, and

Exercise. It's a battle I fight everyday

 to keep going, praying, hoping, looking up to the sky

But all they  think is I want to get high.

I really hope you are not in this position

Someday, when all your loved ones turn away.

I pray no judgement comes upon you

During your pain filled days,

But that's the world we live in I'm afraid.

I wish  you would try to understand

This pain was never in my plans.

I want to be happy, Go places, have

Fun, walk with you in the sun.

I must choose wisely each day

Knowing my pain will make me pay.

I needed your support and help

But you were too busy with yourself.

Now I lay in this room where it's dark,

And  I have to close off my heart.

I don't need this pain and strife

Your Judgement cuts me like a knife….

J.C.Rose