Don’t call me a drug addict

 You’ll ask yourself why you never returned my calls
Think about the times you said nothing 
Connvince yourself you couldn’t have prevented this 
When all I needed was someone
Instead the void left me empty
Like the bottles were on that last night
Without someone to lean on
I found ways to escape.
Alcohol allowed me to feel
Marijuana was a shield, that silenced my thoughts
Giving me a temporary break from reality
And that was almost enough to keep breathing
But molly made me laugh
And cocaine allowed me to smile
And while you called it addiction
I called it surviving.
By the time you noticed my struggle
You told me that “Drugs are bad”
But i did not need to be saved
The decision was made already
So that night
My heart was finally emptied
And as bottles were draining
My thoughts were flooding
So they can believe whatever they want
But i didn't not choose to drown
I swam until i sank.