Drops

Tear by tear,
Nothing I see is clear,
This is not a bad day,
But this is not a good day,
With nowhere to go,
With nothing to do,
But write poetry,
Although I try,
I can not stop writing about me,
What about her,
Why do I care,
Please don't share,
But this is the only way to get it out,
I can't shout,
Tears everyday but no one knows,
It feels like a show,
But people judge these things,
Like its bling,
I don't want them to know,
They will put on a show,
But no one cares,
Because I don't share,
I feel as I should just go,
But no,
I must stay,
I must finish the play,
On my pillow they go,
I feel so low,
Why do my tears still flow,
This is not a show,
Why does it stay a secret,
I feel I have to keep it,
Is anyone out there,
I just need to share,
Is the big guy real,
If so can we make a deal,
If no then why do people believe in you,
I may curse you now and again,
Im not your biggest fan,
But people should help others,
Like they are our sisters and brothers,
Why should I keep going,
Why keep my blood flowing,
Who would care if I died,
No-one would have cried,
At my funeral,
Gosh I am on a roll,
I feel I have died before,
But it was not for sure,
Why didn't I die,
Death to me is not shy,
All people say this,
Blow them a kiss,
Cause some people survive,
They just won't die,
Don't take things for granted,
Because loved ones have parted,
And so will you one day,
There you will lay,
Still as night,
But with no light,
People may or may not cry,
When they have to say goodbye,
I now have to go,
I hope you went with the flow,
Don't follow your dreams,
Chase them they're your dreams,
Live your life to the max,
You can relax,
But be filled with excitement,
Like it won't cost you a cent.