Drowning

I’m a strong swimmer yet right now I’m drowning 
Drowning caused by an unrelenting set of triggers to someone and something I would rather forget 
I can tread water for now but I’ll be drowning soon 
Drowning thanks to my brain thinking I’m not enough because it see others achieving things I can only dream of 

I’m a strong swimmer yet right now I’m drowning 
Drowning caused  my body won’t play ball and allow me to actually do things without suffering for it after so sometime I wonder hey girl why try 
I can tread water for now but I’ll be drowning soon 
Drowning thanks to an incredible amount of internalised self pressure to prove myself to earn validation 

I’m a strong swimmer yet right now I’m drowning 
Drowning caused by not feeling like I belong anywhere or fit in due to how society thinks and feels, Im like a squirrel hiding her nuts just to belong 
I can tread water for now but I’ll be drowning soon 
Drowning thanks to living with skeletons that are nothing to be embarrassed by yet hold so many hushed voices so they will stay hidden not because I think They should but because it keeps everyone comfortable