Engulfed

Just like a water droplet falls into an ocean and is quickly engulfed by such a bigger picture,
That's how it was,
I told myself to go slow, and I think that part of me believed that I was strong enough to,
And I could've been strong enough if I wanted to be, but I didn't,
I wanted to dive into something and become so engulfed in the bigger picture that I was forgotten,
But yet I wanted to be the whole big picture,
I wanted to be the main idea,
All that was on your mind,
But I didn't want you to over think it and understand my intentions,
Because up until this day, I still don't know what they were,
Was I craving attention or love?
For I'm still asking myself this.