Episode

Blips, phases, funny turns.
moments of madness 
pain confusion blame an hurt
Highs n lows , happy v sadness.
prefer the lowest times 
Felt heartless cold inside,
numb no guilt no care 
Blacked out feelings scarce
evil hated honest to much so,
once i unleashed the beast I is,
took their advice opened up,
Stopped being a  muggy shit
told people straigh regulars
all I lived for 4 so long,
All I fight for n believed in 
All the family not blood c'mon
sisters,family bonds sacr'things
all gone forever I fear 
Drama a reason we separated 
Others and grief drugs near
Everything those once hated
I'm losing cse I'm trying to gain
My own life and follow myself 
I've lost almost all my friends 
Y those lost are faulted n selfish
God sons nephews gone
Bonds broke cse their mums 
All I had left to teach better ways
 just my bro to guide now days
failing my own life more I push
Get 10 steps in front n then drop
100 back as I almost got rushed
just to fail or loose and fuck up