Eupd

My diagnosis, said but not known of, explained or over looked with other symptoms I suffer with, and shrugged of with them instead of the eupd in general that's not mentioned just questioned by those who  there to help, pushed out promised help then go weeks ignored like I'm forgotten again by the system helping me but not really fighting to keep my independence no one understanding how big a battle it is and how much I will fuck up loose n  miss how much I fiught to keep it all to be faced with possibility of losing it all I cant I wont I'll die before I do but I'm sick of people sick of being trapped and judged by rumoured shit, lies  that stick 11 years old now 29 and still some people  dont forget or change there minds , helpless hopeless what have I become I turned into one thing I refused to be as a kid the only dream was to be the opposite to who I am now, over all I need to branch out I need to be strong as I weaken I need to brave a fake smile grit nt teeth and keep going