Eternal Queen

How can i forgive 
when they have caused me so much pain
I will never be the same
they stripped me down for their own gain

I use to be so innocent
Sunny girl on a white canvas
The future was mine to paint but i wasnt old enough to have that

what was it about me that attracted such nasty thieves
Was it my eyes that sparkled brown was it my smile that made them cleave?

I had dreams as big as planets
But it was crushed into a billion rocks
One dream smashing into another until i was a lonly Astronaut 

They ripped me open and i floated, heart broken into space
Took my dignity and left in me a darkness that stole its place.

It  filled me up with anger it took away everything i loved
I hated myself for being so weak, so i punished myself with blood

Cuts all up my arms, cuts all down my thighs,
No one really understood the relief that was released when i let the blades just slide

Thoughts about my death, tight ropes, electric currents, racing trains, anything to take my breath
I was so depressed
I thought i had nothing left. 

And then i saw a glimmer
Hope blowing on a wind of sighs
Just when life was getting dimmer
I felt the sun rise
And it crept into my soul
And it filled me like a cup of water
No darkness in the hallway
No shadows in the corner

Life was slammed back into my future
And i knew that i was free
Free from all that pain and torture
Free from the bonds eroding me
My Savior gave me forgiveness
And with it i found a new everlasting dream
I am a beloved daughter of God
I am not where i have been
I am not what i have seen
I am an Eternal Queen. ?