Evil Ex Boyfriend #3

You were someone I thought I could trust
But I was far from right, as I was completely wrong
Because you didn't want anything to do with me
When I made the attempts to create our own song
You waited until the lights got turned down or off
You waited until the shades were closed
I wish I never stayed with you,  
But my feelings for you were too deep
You waited until I was sound asleep
You waited so you could slide 
your hands underneath my clothes
You waited to show your true intentions
You waited to show your true self, 
And I just have to be honest, 
I was consumed more by disgust
Because you were someone 
I thought I honestly could trust
Every night though, you just waited until I was asleep 
to do what you needed to, 
I can't believe what I went through
In order to relieve yourself,  
because you needed to bust a nut
So I figured out what you were actually doing one night
By pretending to be sound asleep, 
just the way you liked it, or so it seemed
And I would breathe as if I was sleeping,
Just so you wouldn't catch me
While I was watching you creeping
Taking my hand and stroking your shaft
I realized what was happening
when the blankets seem to miraculously move
And I suddenly started shaking, catching a cold draft
You were disgraceful, you were obnoxious
You are a sexual predator looking for it's next prey
I hope one day you literally get put away
You did things to me when I was sleeping!
How can you wake up the next day 
Smiling, with that on your conscience
I just continued to let it happen, 
and I still don't know why
Because it's been many years since then, 
and I still sit here and cry
Maybe it's because I just don't understand
Why you would abuse me while I'm asleep
And not just use your own damn hand!
You are a very troubled boy,
And you are someone who will never be a man!

Stephanie A. Ludwig
04/24/2025