Feelings of Desperation

Feelings of desperation pour out of my veins like a river 
I'm getting so fed up by all this I'm so tired I begin to shiver 
The pain eats away at my flesh like I'm its prey 
Yet I still find some how some way to fight against it day by day 
But when you knock on my door and rob me of my determination 
And leave like it was an amateur presentation 
You take a piece of me I've been fighting so hard to gain control of 
"Fat ugly" and yet you call this love 
Well this love that you display 
Only leaves me feeling grey 
Because day by day I fight for the strength for me 
And day by day you fight to take it from me 

I loose all my motivation 
I'm just standing still stuck no inspiration 
Because my robber is someone who should be encouraging
But you are blinded to the womb you are inflicting 
Was it really your mission 
To steal all my ambition?

I'm fighting against your flesh eating words 
Yet you churp and churp like an angry bird 
You fed me insults as my daily meal
My happiness my joy my comfort you steal 
I'm trying and your taking it away from me
You can't just sit back and let me be 
Somehow you feel the need to criticize everything I do 
Not even a how are you 

Just your flesh eating words
Placing me to a test 
A test I'm bound to fail
Because your the bullet that will push me over the rail
I try and try and yet I don't succeed 
So you stab and stab away at each and every cut the bleeds