Insecurties

There’s no doubt that every girl desire to see a picture of perfection 
Each time she gazes upon her reflection 
Yet in each side way face any direction  
She becomes consumed by her own imperfection 
They consumer her like a raging fire of rejection

“fat ugly sloppy” vibrates in her head  
Never letting go of the pain once said  
She isn’t pleased with the reflection in the mirror  
The more she tries it all becomes clearer 
There’s no hope to ease her burning desire 
Because no matter what she does it all back fires 
 
Day and night beating yourself up an endless fight  
With just pain left in sight  
Nothing but a big bright light 
Striking me down and making me powerless against this fight  
I can’t do this I’m not strong enough  
I’m not brave bold confident I’m not enough ‘ 
 
Insecurities now control my body  
My brain is fogged up wondering " why is this my story?” 
I’m holding on to every power I once thought I held 
But all my abilities are caged prisoner in a cell  
My insecurities are winning  
They are in control I’m not kidding  
They got me breaking my back  
Trying to fight against them giving myself a mental attack  
I can’t win so why even try  
When the voices are controlling your mind saying its cheapest you just die  
 
Will I fail will I succeed 
I’m fighting this fight until I bleed 
Suffocated by my own thoughts  
I’m left trying to connect the dots  
When did I become so caught up by my reflection  
That all I could analyze was the imperfections  
Where did my happiness disappear too
What did I do insecurities to deserve you?