Crushing

Crashing against the waves like a professional surfer 
Just questioning could this friendship transpire into something further 
I'm suffocating from my own emotions  
It"s swallowing me whole like the waves to the oceans  
I just cant believe that I'm finding myself falling  
Drowning sinking but then again I'm just stalling 
I'm staling because I'm crushing on a kid  
But yet I urge and long for every grip 
To feel our body inter twined naked passionate body pressed against mines 
To stare and gaze into those big beautiful eyes  

 But I'm afraid I'm afraid of this crush I'm having  
It makes me wonder what is all of this becoming  
I'm falling for someone who doesn’t even notice me  
I'm falling because they bring out the best in me 
It makes me feel like love can be  
Then a striking wave of reality awakens me  

Am I the only one feeling this way  
Their Constantly on my mind every second of the day  
911 what's your emergency ? 
I need attention urgently  
Because I stumble each time a text flash across my screen  
It makes me want to "holla" kick and scream  
Your  making my heart skip a beat without realizing  
I'm falling in love with the words that fall from your lips an a confidence that’s so mesmerizing  
 
Can I just awaken from this dream  
Look into your eyes an know you feels the same 
I feel like I'm floating on a bed of roses  
I don’t know what to think or how to feel but all I know is  
I crave you like my daily meal  
My protein my nutrients I need to sustain  
I'm driving myself wild trying for figure out if the feelings are the same  
Its killing me not wanting to ask but I just cant risk the shame  

P.s I wrote this for my crush who was basically my closest friend so I had to do what it took to be taken seriously