First child and new emotions

I feel a pain in my heart that I would never wish another person to feel.
Empty, lost, numb—you name it, I most likely feel it.
Five days ago, I became a mother to the most amazing little guy,
I carried him for nine months inside my belly.
Although my pregnancy I admit I was mostly in denial Through out.
But the day I gave birth, that denial I no longer felt inside.
My heart instantly loved him, without a single doubt.
For once, no longer did my heart feel so hollow inside and out.
My baby boy gave me a feeling, one of which I had no idea existed.
To love and raise my little guy is all I want to do now and forever.
My choices, though, keep him from me at this point in time.
Cps came to the hospital and took him in a blink of an eye.
And now a new set of feelings has swooped inside me.
Feelings I’m certain only a parent could feel.
Being a mother, I will not give up, nor will I shut myself down.
To be strong and do what I must do to get him back is all I can do.
I will not give up or lose my faith in the Lord or myself.
I will get my baby back, even if it takes a little time.
Zane Eli Scott is my son and my life, and he will always be. 
This event in my life will come to an end. I will have him in my arms again.
Never again will this happen. I promise him and myself this.