Focus

-Trapped in the depths of my mind
-time has no meaning
-like time stopped at dawn
-.....or maybe it's dusk
-....no twilight, that's it!
-caught in the farcical evanescence when the sun kisses the skyline
-coaxing out a chimera variegation of blues pinks Oranges and purples that beautifully stain the face of the heavens -an ethereally aerial inkblot test that revolves around me until I can't tell one hue from the next
-......is the world spinning or am I
-focus.....
-slow down.....
-stop......
-focus..... there is no focus here
-with nothing and everything to focus on -eyes glued open
-my mind defenseless....
-unguarded.....
-unprotected to the interminable lambasting of new information
-no structure.......
-no order......
-the connections binding one thought to another stretched and weak
-so of no relevance to each other...
-or themselves.....
-focus has not chance of strengthening it's hold here
-in this place where it's needed most
-even writing this....
-it teases me with transient glimpses of clarity
-taunting me....
-Clarity runs grey and black
-color Vivid
-blinding
-Can you repeat yourself
-repeat
-repeat
-over and over
- Attention so adventurous
-It wondered never to settle
-Trudging along the beaten trails of the forest of thought
-Where the smog of indecision and doubt roll over my eyes obscuring the pathway to my train of thought
-leaving me with the bittersweet taste of remembrance