To Forget You

I would almost like to forget you , I'd like  to not miss you anymore. To sleep at night. to not have you in my dreams, like a cloud of memories surrounding me with happiness , only to leave me to wake with disappointment.

 But your eyes , I get lost in them all too easily , the small crystal waves that flutter through them ,draw me closer and closer , until once again I fall . But not only is it your eyes that seem to captivate me , but your smile, it brings me in and holds me close , refusing to let go . I've stopped fighting it. I let it take me in , take over me because there is no use in trying to run away . It would be as if I were racing the wind , impossible to win , with nothing but a quick rush and a disappointing outcome . 

What society seems to think love Is , couldn't be more wrong . "Society " doesn't believe in love , at least not the love that I believe In . I believe in the love that takes your breath away , and that can make you. , or break you with one single slash. Love can hurt . I've learned that , and to a much higher extent than I have ever wished for .  But without love I wouldn't be the me I am today. I wouldn't be anybody. I'd be like a crumbled up piece of paper lying over in the corner. , forgotten and unknown .
  
Honestly and truthfully , nobody wants that . To feel worthless , with nothing to live for . Nobody to live for . I wake up every morning with your face in mind . You are the reason I can bring myself to face each day . Before you , I never could smile . I was so locked up inside my lack of self esteem that I couldn't see the beauty in life , the beauty inside of anything . I was a miserable mess , and yet you had the audacity to let me know I was beautiful . Now I live by your words . Your poetic words of encouragement and hope that brought me though a depression deeper than all oceans , seas , rivers and lakes combined . I loved you more than anything else . I still do .