Poem -
Forgive Me I Tryed (part1of 2)
I'm sorry I tryed
I can't win this fight
I'm tired of trying
So sick of the crying
It makes me feel better
Forgets all my nevers
It's too hard to focus
With all these emotions
Just wish you could see
It's bigger than me
Feels shattered and broken
Better off just not knowing
Turn your backs on me now
You don't need me around
Forget me today
Realize I won't change
Don't try to save me
Keep all our good memories
I want so badly to make it
But I'm too tired to fake it
This is all that works
May end me I'm sure
I love you ,don't hate me
Save your hate for the addiction
Hate the freedom it gave me
Don't judge my path ,it wasn't your mission .
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This one is from one of the worst nights of my life ,and was what prompted "Fight Of My Life" .I thought about not sharing it because it was so of the "giving up" essence ,but like I said re re-reading this over n over again is what shook me awake and where I developed the fight in me with God's help .
Written October 2013.
Happy to report I am happily drug free and with God's help will stay that way !
The poem is all me.The image I found that hits home the way I felt that night ,knowing I was better than the addiction ,but running low on the energy to fight it .
Hi Jaimie,
I feel so proud of you sweety, I realize that this was from the heart and very hard for you, but you have done it and you will get there honey with Gods help and we are all here for you at Cosmo! You are not alone sweety. If I can help you with anything, please don`t be afraid to get in touch with me. I`m here for you and all at Cosmo send their love. Stay strong honey and you will get there. Much love and hugs. G xx
Thank you .like I said I have been clean and have no plans to do it again .This was written before I realized just how much God not only loved me ,but that I was of the divine myself.The reason I chose to share this from almost three years ago was in hopes that someone who was going through it would resonate and see anything can be overcome with God <3
You should feel very proud of yourself for getting through all that pain because I know how hard it is sweety. There are a lot of people suffering like that. We at Cosmo are lucky to be able to put it all in writing, it`s great therapy. Welcome to Cosmo honey, I`m sure you will make many good friends. Keep writing for us all. Much love. G xx
Thank you <3