Fortune (Caution expletives)

Fortune favours no-one

Or maybe just not me

The lives I’ve lead  

The skins I’ve shed

And still fortune hasn’t found me

Maybe she’s out there waiting

A doting wife on the wings

I feel I’ve done all I can

To get that girl to sing

But she doesn’t even see me

Like the crush of a lovesick teen

I’ve always been invisible to her

Inside my joyless scene

Fortune favours the brave

How much courage could do you need?

I faced down enemy  fire

Then with solemn pyre

Laid my comrades into the green

And still she is not here, nowhere to be seen

So I tried my luck with karma

Ancient beliefs to the test

But I found it to be empty

As was all the rest

I stood up for society

Moral outrage on the buses

“Let the old girl sit down!”

The teenage gang scowled

Then all gathered round

They were not for the turning

They beat me to a mess

Where was karma at that moment?

Was she off to confess?

About how she and favour had abandoned me

Leaving me to my own devices

“He’ll be fine, just give him time”

Then destroyed me with their vices

No....I’m wrong

Favour favours the selfish

The psychopathic CEO

Turning resource into profits

Who cares where the forest goes

Maybe its a bit cheeky

To think of it this way

I am typing up this poem

And there is some food downstairs

A lot of others have nothing

Raped daughters and scars bare

So maybe I am a little fortunate

But I’ve never been aware

No!  FUCK YOU FORTUNE!

AND YOU LUCK!

I’ve never seen your faces

I’ve give up waiting for you

To turn up in strange places

From now on its me

Just me

Just me and no-one else

I’m turning into a psycho

Putting my heart upon the shelf

And turning out to face you

So you can no longer fuck me up my arse

I’ll sit here in my darkness

And spit in your half-full glass

When luck and favour abandoned me

They took with them my hope

And left me nothing but this poetry

To quantify my slippery slope