From Deep Within My Mind

My subconscious mind is shouting
“Wake up!  Something’s wrong!”
As I go about my daily slumber.
I need to explode like a
Volcanic eruption.
 
But you see it’s messy:
Twice my mind has erupted
And I’ve ended up
On psychiatric wards with
Everything spilling out:
 
Crying.  Sobbing.  Rambling.
Feelings and emotions
I do not know I have
Because they are repressed:
Hidden from my awareness.
 
But there’s something there:
Of that I’m sure
And it troubles my mind.
I can only sense what I sense.
I don’t know what else is there.
 
I can hear these voices shouting,
Warning, from deep within
My overactive mind.
I don’t know what it is
That they are trying to tell me.
 
Living alone I read in the news:
War, strife, danger, uncertainty
And it makes the world,
As I look out of my window,
Seem like a very scary place.
 
Never knowing what’s real
Or what might happen next
Is what I perceive really there?
Or is it like the Kanizsa Triangle:
Merely a construct of my mind?
 
MDC