Going On

The house is lonely
It misses you
The yard is lonely 
No one cares like you
The dog searches for you
Even now he carries that ball 
I throw it but it isn't you
My heart is empty
No one can fill it but you
I watch TV 
But the thing is hollow
Where is the lovely man
Noises during a 49rs game?
Where is the presence of
Your loving concern over 
Dinner 
Your feedback on my attire
Your warmth when we slept. 
Years of companionship
Ripped apart by death
I am angry at you at times
I wanted to go first
But 
I also love you still 
As the first day we wed
As the new mom and wife
That had much to learn
As now your widow
I have much to grieve
You are not easy to forget 
Thank God I don't have to
I just have to go on 
With you in my head