gone

wanting, craving, and needing to regain access to the part of the brain that needs feeding
to return to the happy spot, when life was easy and love was simple....away from the not
not here....no love here
not seen or foreseen or sought after
because the heart shut down when your physical left
anxiety took over and the why's became acceptance
reluctant to love again she met them all with hesitance
drive by's and fly by's, but her heart still cries
for what was lost in the mire of shame and guilt and blame....it's all part of the game
the game of no's and fears and undeserving minds
of untamed thoughts and relentless fears and wanting to press rewind
to return to love....the natural state
she couldn't wait
but how....when all she thinks about is gone