goodbye letter

I can’t find words 
To really comprehend how I feel
I think I’m in a situation 
One in which won’t allow me to heal
Blamed for things I’ve experienced 
Blamed for her mistakes 
I bit my tongue I don’t know how much more I can take 

You made out the man who raised me
Was a monster 
But really he wasn’t at all
He was the one there to catch me
Every single time I would fall
I’m your daughter
But really I’m not
I’m the daughter you abandoned 
The one you forgot

Now it’s all coming to light
I’m not sleeping at night 
Worrying if my dads alright
The words that surface to your vocal chords
Are poisonous, like venom
And I’m done
This is my goodbye to you, “mum”.