Grey Heart

My heart is not white nor is it black
Grey heart.
I don’t like this, not at all
Build up a concrete wall.
To keep away the rain
That causes me pain.
I don’t want to cry
I want my cheeks to be dry.

My mind is not weak nor is it strong
Grey heart.
Everything is so wrong
I don't know if I can be strong.
Nothing is good nor is it bad
I don’t wanna be sad.
I wish I was a clown
So I could never be down.

My soul is not pure nor is it evil
Grey heart.
I wish I could stop all these fears
That come along with unending tears.
Everything is left unspoken
That’s why my heart is broken.
I will try to make everything right
And I know it won’t happen overnight.

My smile is not yellow nor is it white
Grey heart.
Do you want to recommend a cure?
To make my heart pure.
My mind is filled with darkness
Leaving no space for brightness.
I need a wall to keep away the rain
That causes me pain.