Happiest depressed person

-‘I’m the happiest depressed person you’ll ever meet.’ (Poem below is based off this quote) 

“I curled my hair today, put on my lashes, and picked my best shirt. I wiped down my shoes, and coordinated my outfit. I look good, I know I do. 

I curled my hair because it doesn’t just fall around my shoulders like before. Last mental breakdown I cut it all off, my curly hair,  once long and lushes, hangs pitifully to my chin.  Oh what a long few weeks it’s been, these lashes hide my eyes. They keep people oblivious to the obvious distress, I smile because they’re all doing it. If I don’t blend in they’ll think somethings off, bombard and poke with smiles on their faces. 

They know why I’m so sad, why I look like I’ve lost my drive. Yet they smile, what can I do, it happened to me not you. They’re not obligated to share my sorrow, so I smile and brush the questions away. I beat around the bush, acting as happy as can be. The know well, I’m the happiest depressed person you’ll ever meet.” -AuthorAAJ