Happiness

They say happiness is a choice. I disagree. Happiness isn’t something you can just turn on and off. As someone who has really bad depression I can say happiness is definitely not a choice. I hate when people walk up to me and say don’t be sad be happy. How can I when I don’t feel anything. Yet feel everything at the same time. I hate myself but I love myself too. It’s a confusing journey and it’s a difficult time in my life right now. I am still learning who I am without a relationship to tell me who to be. I’m angry all the time and anxious and sad and just over life in general. So again I don’t think that happiness is something we choose. It’s not something that you can push a button and say oh I’m happy now. That’s sadly not how life works.