Is this happiness

you ask 
is this happiness?

I answer 

No,
not happiness,
happiness...
It is nothing
it's nothing
Nothing like these shadows that seem to want to be touching
Nothing like the way they give shade for a moment to sunbleached lips
It has a little more color

it is when our hearts
Dried out from the burning beams of smiling
 find rest
in the arms of another

If you ask
I say no
It is nothing 

nothing like happiness
More like solemnity
this little thing between you and me
but this moment has us charmed
so much so that noone is smiling

noone has to

Smiles would never fit in my romantic stylings

No
this feeling
this moment
It is nothing like happiness

It's closer to sadness
and a sadness we cling to like wet leaves

a strong breeze of things pushing us together
It's not a thing i would ever shed tears for having
only for its loss

When it becomes nothing
it will be nothing
and these shadows will cease to be touching
parting the way for sunbleached teeth
beaming out again as the day returns
as life returns
fun is so easy to find

but when i go to sleep at night
its not fun i dream of

its nothing like it