Her

For years on end I have loved you
Now it’s the silence I love most
Anger greets me in the morning
Screaming and shouting
Laughing at how Ive let it this close.
Sadness lies with me like it does every night
Thinks we’re in love, soulmates even
Holds me so tightly
I can hear its heart beatin
And how I wish it would die
I can’t remember if with you I was alive
Or had I been gone the whole time?
I guess now it doesn’t matter
We’re like worlds apart
And if it was my mind you were after
Well you fucked me twice,
And stabbed me in the heart
I hope you’re happy.
I can’t remember who I used to be
With all this pain
I search for freedom  almost endlessly
And thanks to you I’ll never find it
At least not in the sense of my best friend
Ill never forget us, but I do resent us
I loved you so much back then
And now it’s the silence that I love the most