His death

I don't know what i want anymore
Im lost i don't know why
It is like im afraid to be left in a small store
Can all my fears be that he has to die
Or im overreacting over his death
Maybe yes maybe no i guess
Im not cool with playing the victim role
I would rather be left in a darkened hall
I just can't gather my feelings
I can't act like human beings
Im lost and i don't know when i will wake up
I keep asking my self will there ever be a sub
It is driving me insane not finding him around
And when i hear his name my heart starts to pound
I will never get used that he is missing
Though i know i will never hear him hissing
It gets worse and worse as time pass
And when it do they say im a pathetic lass
Fuck , i never wanted to be like this
But all is based on his DEATH...