"Home"

This word means nothing to me anymore i lost the ones i loved and i am here alone with nothing yet i put a fake smile on my face day in and day out just so no one will know whats going on and "home". All the people who say "home" is save and loving... i tell them they only say that in there own opinion. They look at me like i am crazy... but hey i know what it is like to not have a "home" to go to and i know  how it feels to not have your own mother there for you to love you and care for you... im alone and i have been for 8 months yet i still try to live my life with a fake smile and fake laugh... every one who knows me best knows there is something up. but if they dont know me they think i am fine and i am doing good... but in side i am alone and crying for help and for some one to love me and care for me. yet i am alone with no "home" to go to...