I am

I am a wounded soldier fighting for my last breath.
I know it's just a matter of time before I die,
I am a wounded soldier fighting to survive.
I hear the sound of gunshots all around me and I pray that a bullet won't hit me,
I am a wounded soldier fighting for my life.
I feel all alone and lonely, I listen to the sound of footsteps all around me, they all see but everyone thinks I'm dead,
I am a wounded soldier fighting to be rescued.
I want to shout, "help me, I'm still alive," but my voice is gone,
I am a wounded soldier fighting to be heard.
I wish I could curl up and vanish but God won't let me,
I am a wounded soldier wishing to vanish.
I hope I can see my family one last time,
I am a wounded soldier fighting to make it through the night.
I need someone to tend to my wounds before I die,
I am a wounded soldier in need of some care.
I feel hopeless and powerless against the sky falling down upon me,
I am a wounded soldier in need of an umbrella.
I want and I need love,
I am a wounded soldier fighting for a little affection.
I feel betrayed and used by the ones whom I loved and trusted,
I am a wounded soldier fighting to control my emotions.
I'm so sick of being hurt over and over again,
I am a wounded soldier in need of a hug.
I see a hole in my chest and I know I must have a broken heart,
I am a wounded soldier wishing for my scars to heal.
I'm tired of all the hate and violence,
I am a wounded soldier hoping to have a loving family.
I feel the tears coming,
I am a wounded soldier crying my last tears.
I can feel the life being sucked out of me,
I am a wounded soldier happy God answered my prayers.
I know I won't suffer anymore and it makes me smile,
I am a wounded soldier going to be with my loved ones in Heaven.
I look up at the stars and I know my time has come to leave this horrible place behind and be with the ones that love me, at last.
I'm finally free from all the chains that have held me back from happiness all these years.
I've looked forward to this for so many years and now that I'm gone from this world, I wonder will anyone miss me?
At least I won't cry myself to sleep anymore at night.
I'll fly amongst the stars with the other angels.
Laugh, smile and truly be happy.
No more masks to hide how I feel.
I am a wounded soldier fighting for my last breath!

I hope no one ever feels the way I do inside every day of my life.
It's sad and lonely, and everyone deserves so much better.
I hope you enjoy life and never have to go through what I have.
No, I don't want to kill myself and I never could.
God will choose when to take me, until then I'll just suffer through everyday life and hope that it gets better soon.