"I Am My Criminal"

"I am downright disgusted,
at the monster I became,
abusing drugs,
and being completely insane,
struggling everyday,
to poison myself,
to make all my feelings and thoughts,
get placed on a shelf,
way back in the back of my mind,
but now I am pulling out all those files,
and analyzing them for quite a while,
because I haven't worried,
or cared for me in a very long time,
and I now realize,
that's one of the most,
ultimate crimes."