I am so sorry

I am so sorry my friend I want you to know that I carry you deep within and I pray that one day our hearts will mend. I am so sorry for so so many things and I miss the glow in your eyes and the joy that friendship brings
​​​we were so young and made decisions that we somehow regret. I just want you to know if I could turn back the hands of time I would only ask for my friendship back. I was wild I was dumb I was irresponsible and now we have to deal with what we have done. I see things differently now things that when I was a young girl I didn't see all I want now is for you to forgive me. I am sorry for being such a smart-ass and for acting like our friendship didn't mean much it meant more to me than you'll ever know you were like big sisters you only get one in a lifetime you know
I am sorry about all of this mess with this man but you said ain't no fun if the homies can't have none when we were just little girls who knew that this man will come along and destroy our worlds you said it didn't matter as long as we didn't love him who knew that I would love him and you would too. boo you never said anything about kids but now they're here and we don't have a simple hello or goodbye to say to each other and that I fear. what do we do we are not children anymore and we have babies that we adore enough time has passed and I forgive you and I think that you should forgive me  but so much destruction has taken place it just seems like this could never be. I just want to say I am sorry but truth is life goes on and wishes don't come true so long my friend may God bless you and your children boo.