I asked myself

I once asked myself if I was happy
In the past,the decisions I'd made, 
The childhood I too grappled through 
The memories locked, began to fade, 
Never wanting to be at school on my own 
I'd make a mess of myself it's true, 
For all I had is my mum in my life
Holding the world astride passing through, 
Hidden cuts inside my inner mind & soul
Never a normal childhood did I see, 
Always a lonely cloud lurking over ahead
Drowning me in regret & captivity, 
I once asked myself an important question 
Will I be content,from birth til I die, 
And now realise the answer to my test
I maybe then til my spirit ceases to cry.