I can't hold on much longer

They say what don't kill us makes us stronger
But I can't hold on much longer 
The hand dealt, I folded
A never ending story.... I told it
There's is no escaping reality
Death before dishonor....too many causalities
My mind on think mode
Life.....this lonely road
My head above water ain't working for me
Drowning in life seems certain for me
My smiles come fake
I'm dieing inside...about to break
I'm tired of folding my hands
I feel like God can't even understand 
I'm at the cliff looking over....the darkness is calling
In life I keep.....falling
Is there truth in our lies
Is there passion in our cries
Hell seems inevitable 
Heavens just a thought that once seemed Incredible 
Pain has settled in
Pain.....there is no end
I'm tired of picking up pieces from a broken heart
I'm tired of living in the dark
Shadows seem to follow me
The darkness seems to swallow me
Lost beyond repair
Life full of despair 
My dreams are like rewinding time
A past that taunts this life of mine
They say what don't kill us makes us stronger
They were wrong....I can't hold on much longer!