I CAN'T SEE

I can't stop running

But there's no place to hide

I can't drown it

I can't keep it inside

It slowly resurfaces

And comes back up for air

I push it back down

But it's always there

I can't see through the pain

Through the blurs and the smears

My mascara running

Trying to see through my tears

Blinded by emotions

That stir up the heart

Reliving the memories

That tear me apart

I can't see

Though I rub my eyes

I can't make any sense

Through the pain of my cries

I can't shove it down

And pretend it's not there

It keeps coming back up

Fighting for air

It's time to confront

The past trauma head on

Not push it away

And pretend that it's gone