I can't sleep!

Sleep evades me 
Thoughts invade my mind 
Am I being too friendly 
Too happy 
Too kind 

Am I trying to be something 
Or someone I'm not 
Is it really that hard 
To accept 
This is my lot 

Have I not seen enough 
To know what is true 
Have I not begun something 
Where the old 
Becomes new 

Will I ever know what it's like to be 
Believed 
Am I ever going to get the chance 
To just be 
Just be Me

Will I always second guess 
Who I'm meant to be 
Will I ever get the chance 
To be totally 
Happy 

Should I just go back 
To where I once was 
Should I give up my dream of 
No longer feeling lost 

Of feeling at last 
Like I truly belong 
To just this one life 
Would that really be 
So wrong 

Sleep evades me 
My mind just won't stop 
I want to forget now 
Please let me get off 

Written 7/10/16