I crave..

I crave attention and affection and yet you force me to starve 
Not giving me what I need as my self-confidence is carved 
how can you not see I'm drowning and spluttering up salt water that's as salty as my tears
weren't you the people designated to love me throughout the years 
And yet here I stand hurt rippling through my chest from being constantly told to just eat sleep and rest 
but I refuse to just survive how you want me too I'm going to do all the things I've always wanted to 
you can no longer grab the hem of my sleeve this time I won't stop once I've started to leave