I Have to Let Go

Skipped out on morning walks
The time I planned to talk
Feeling more than depressed
Becouse I got more than obsessed
We talked through the phone today
Got tongue tied now knowing what to say
Questions and thoughts fill my head
Feeling like I’m hanging by a thread
Not enough bricks to build this wall
My hearts been bounced like a basketball 
I clearly don’t make the cut
So I keep my mouth shut 
My mind filled with doubt 
Thinking about when we went out
To everything I’ve gone blind
He’s the only thing on my mind
My heart can’t stop asking “when?”
All I have left is paper and pen
To go through this is hard
My heart in shreds and shards
I count to three
But it still bothers me
Not sure how much I can take
Befire I finally break
I have to hold it in
It won’t stop once it begins
Starting to take a mental dive
As this feeling eats me alive
This feeling I must ignore
Throw away the key and lock the door
I must find a way to break free
Even though this is killing me