I just can't

I can’t breathe,
I just choke,
I feel like my lungs are filling up with smoke,
Suffocating,
Trying to scream to let it out,
Out of breath,
Out of luck,
Lost without will or drive,
Damned if I tell & damned if I don’t,
These headaches from the shouting going on inside my mind,
Countless sleepless nights lead to days in bed,
I feel unnoticed, unimportant,
a candle that can burn out or be blown out at any second,
I wish I could slow things down,
Don’t worry I don’t think everything is about me,
Holding on, trying to trek through these tough times that won’t run out,
Drifting away into the background without a sound or a cry,
I just wonder why,
I can’t breathe,
I just choke.