I Must Confess

I must make a confession,
Please just leave the questions
Until the end.
When I speak, then rain
Will fall. Pure pain
Is not something I'll not lend.
So maybe I shouldn't say.
At least not today.
Maybe another time
I'll have the courage.
Human demurrage.
The words are hard to find.
You know what, I
Can't do this. I'd die
Before spilling the truth.
And that's what's happened,
As the breath leaves in a rapid
Fashion. I'm sorry these words are sooth. 
I hope you understand, that it
Wasn't mum or dad. A bit
Unsure whether I'm gonna go through
With this or not. So, as you see
Me hang from the support beam,
Just know it wasn't you.
Goodbye.