I need some company (freestyle)

I guess things don’t really work that way. Asking will I be in the pursuit of happiness or celebrate my Independence Day? Nobody really ever had to fight for your spot. I figured we can make it work but I guess not, and we both said we gotta change our ways problem is we said that a lot. I’ve matured, I gave you what the other girls didn’t. It was pure, like planting seeds watching it grow and eating what you pick from it. You wanted your poem you got it. You forced words onto paper, I guide them. Like shooting stars they once in a lifetime you make a wish but you don’t see it. I’m glad we had that talk though. I was able to hear a side of you that you hid from me. Sad thing that side of you was about me, there was no more secrets we both said it proudly. It just hurts when I hear what you think about me. If I hurt you I’m sorry I didn’t mean it. I told what would happen and it happened cause I seen it. You said I was crazy that I though you didn’t believe it. But now I lost both of y’all it’s hard to even repeat it. I’m hurting, whose there to comfort my pain? I write to keep from going completely insane. My thoughts fight each other there’s a war in my brain. I’m a tragedy waiting to happen, a drunk behind the wheel switching lanes.