I wanna scream

I wanna scream 
I wanna scream
Pain is coursing through me in the extreme 
Can’t really function
Can’t get relaxed
Can’t remove this pain
Can’t play the life game

I wanna scream
I wanna scream 
It’s the weekend and my kids wanna eat ice cream 
Wanna play games
Want mum to be psychologically theirs 
But instead I’m in tears on the inside
All can do is tensely lie in my bed
Tensely stand in the kitchen and hold my head
Tensely  whisper to my partner I need another nap
Another rest

When all I wanna do is scream and shout and jump about and rid my self of this disease that has its invisible claws in me.