I Want Bliss

I hate this feeling,
The ache
In my chest is growing by the minute
My heart is beginning to break.

Tears slide down my cheek
Smearing my mascara,
Searing my skin
While my eyes leak.

I scream your name
Knowing you can’t hear me but
Doing it anyway, just screaming in the dark
Wishing everything was still the same.

My mind is a battleground
A bloody, dangerous battle
tearing me apart from the inside,
making no sound.

No one sees my
Torture, they can’t see
The pain I hide behind my fake smile
On the inside I sigh…

It’s tearing me,
Poisoning my thoughts, like an all
Consuming tidal wave of pain
Crashing into me from the sea.

I don’t want this
To destroy me completely
But it seems it is coming whether I want it to or not
Just return me to bliss

There and only
There will this pain
Turn into something I can bare
Then maybe it won’t be so lonely.