I was never young with you

I was never young with you
I didn't have a chance
 dad molested me
mom was oblivious suffering her own demons

I was 12 when I ran away looking and feeling like a sixteen-year-old heading for the big city so I can hide amongst the people

I left because of a gang rape and deserted my little Hometown 
I was never happy there again 

I grew up so fast and had to keep myself safe
sleeping behind dumpsters and in doorways once in an Apartments garbage chute

I sold my body and  lost all the Innocence I had left 
I was beaten and abused  but needed the money to survive 

I ran with a motorcycle club when 
I was really 16 made me feel so bold and strong 
I left them for my husband when I was 18

so with all the chances I had but  didn't take to be a part of a family I was never young with you