Like I Will Not Live Another Day

I'm tired of these voices trapped

Inside my head

Banging against my skull

Like there was a bass drum beat 

From one of my favorite songs 

Living inside my brain.

I'm tired of this feeling

Inside my ribcage and my stomach

Pressing against my lungs and my heart

Like there was a weight holding me down

From the stack of metal in the basement

Trapping me against myself.

I'm tired of this sadness

This anger crawling under my skin

Like there were a million hungry creatures

From my favorite horror movie

All coming to snatch away my smiles.

I'm fed up with the depression

So I will take a stand

Like I was a warrior

From my favorite book

Wielding a knife blazing with light and happy memories.

I'm fed up with the sadness

So I will draw my blade

Like I was going to fight my way out

From the inside of my body to my skin

Using music and love to find a way.

I'm fed up with the anxiety

So I will forget the bad things and forget to worry

Like I was not going to live another day

And I will call upon the demons 

From inside the depths of my head

And laugh when they try to bring me down.

I'm fed up with their torture,

So I will take control

Like I was the leader all along

From that old saying, I decide my destiny,

And I just lost my way for a few months.

I'm fed up with my monsters

So I will scream at them to come out and play

Like I was fighting my last battle on my very last day

From dawn till dusk

I will yell and scream and jeer and fight

Because I'm giving it all I've got

Like I will not live another day.