I wish

I wish you could see how hard I try 
To keep that gleam inside my eye 

I wish you understood the feelings I go through 
The emotions underneath that constantly brew 

I wish you could see how hard I try 
And all the things I keep inside 

I wish you could see the tears I hold back 
And all of the things I feel I lack 

I wish you could see the pain inside 
That leaves me wondering why even try 

I wish you could see who I really am 
And not just who I pretend to be 

I wish you could see I want so much more 
Even as I lay here shaking on the floor 

I wish you could know what it's like 
To feel everything so deeply 

I wish you could know what it's like 
To be so very empty 

I wish you could see I'm not who I was 
I will never be her again 

I wish you could see I need you so much 
That's how I can make this cycle end 

I wish you could see how I feel all alone 
Lost adrift in the sea 

I wish you could see how I'm just holding on 
Not know who next I will be