I Wish This Was All A Dream

Yeah I deal with loneliness and depression at times.
Doesn't mean that I'm weak just makes me stronger inside.
That's how I learn to survive.
I keep it all in my mind n set it aside.
Just because u don't see no tears doesn't mean that I don't cry.
Sometimes I ask why...
Why am I still alive with all the things that I survived.
If it was someone else they would probably wanna die.
But this is just a part of my story.
I'm getting no younger and I'm already in my 40s.
Trying to still figure out my purpose n what it all means for me.
Sometimes this all seems like a dream to me.
Like I'm drowning and trying to breathe.
As I Catch my breath n open my eyes n tell myself there has to be more to life then what I see it to be.
I wish this was all a dream and not actually happening to me.
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Hey ELLIOT!!..... this is VERY poetic...... The long "I" sound carrying the first part of it.... and then the long "E" sound, carrying the second part of it.... but interestingly you weave the long "E' and "I" through those final two lines......VERY cool!!.... conveying your truth about what it means to deal with getting older with loneliness and depression's hand in it!!..... you've created some compelling poetic melancholy here my friend!!......ALL STARS!!.......LOVE & ROCKETS!! ??✴❤❤✴?
awww Thanks Tony!!..Alot of what I write comes from experience n how I see things in others...Not everything is about me but there is some truth in it that concerns me..As u see I love to write n I'm very passionate n get deep into it. I love to express myself thru writing..thanks again for ur comment..it fuels me to keep writing!
As a diagnosed manic depressive I could relate to much of what you've written here, Elliot.
If I've said this once, I've said it a hundred times:
I don't mind being alone.
But I hate like hell being lonely.
Great writing, keep e'm comin'.
~Dean Kuch ♪♫♥♫♪
Thanks Dean!..yea ur exactly right...I deal with the same at times...I too don't mind being alone ...just the lonely part gets me sometimes...but this definitely helps alot when I write..