I'm not better

I walk around everywhere 
Putting on a fake smile 
It keeps killing me on the inside 
Because the real one hasn't been there for a while
People will talk about and exclude me 
But I have to pretend like I don't care 
When all I can see is 
Everyone starting to laugh and stare 
I pretend like I'm okay 
Even though I'm really not 
But because I try not to show it 
It' hard for people to spot 
My family, friends and teachers say that I'm getting better 
When things are getting worse 
All of this pain and heartbreak 
Feels like a curse 
I'm not okay 
I'm not getting better 
Trying to deal and cope with everything 
Is getting a whole lot harder