I'm not sure

I'm not sure

I'm not sure I loved you because each time we fought

I was quick to think to leave

I was not for a moment moved with your angered face

Not in the least interested in how deeply I hurt you

I'm not too sure I cared

Each time you looked close to the door, I was keen to see the grass outside

I was not in the least hurt by tears disrupting your sight

I'm not too sure I understood you

Each time you were keen to explain I was too busy talking

My ears were fascinated by my voice

I'm not too sure I wanted to be here

Each time  thought of a forever

I reminded myself of a right now

I am just not too sure

I don't care because my heart is aching and I'd much rather act like I don't care than admit that it's killing me