I'm okay

I'm okay,
even though your forcefull fists attack my flesh,

leaving trails of crimson and imprints of black and blue

I'm okay ,

even though you force yourself upon me so often,

it makes me wonder ,

if I still have a soul,

if I am still whole

I'm okay,

even though you make me watch as you drink yourself into oblivion,

each drink dragging you closer to the grips of death

I'm okay,

even though her death replays In my mind ,

a constant reminder of how you pushed her into the icy waters,

the icy lake that took my twin away

I'm okay,

even though at three years old,

your recklessness took my other half away,

changing me forever,

while you just stayed the same

so I'm okay dad,

even though you ruined me,

I'm okay,

I'm a fighter,

even when you hurt me in every possible way,

and I don't know how much more I can take ,

I am okay